One of my regular Shabbat dinner guests insisted that I go to the Rosh Chodesh gathering of ladies in the community. We learn Torah and do healing prayers all together by reading psalms and doing public petitions for our loved ones. It's also a time of eating and rejoicing!
When we talked about numerology, I mentioned my precious numerology that I've recently discovered. I nearly drowned in the upper American River when I was 12 years old, the age of Bat Mitzvah, the coming of age of a spiritual woman. The American River is a Mikvah, pure water for spiritual cleansing. So G_d gave me a personal Bat Mitzvah, since I had no idea of my Jewish heritage.
Even more amazing is that 40 years after my personal Bat Mitzvah with G_d, I did an orthodox conversion to Judaism in 1.5 years---very quickly. When the ladies heard my personal numerology, there were gasps. They knew the importance of the American River being a Mikvah, and some had used it instead of the community Mikvah. They also were amazed that it was exactly 40 years of wandering through many religions to find my way home. Only Jews wander for 40 years!
It became apparent to all that my ex-fiance, who was shamed to leave the country and go back to Israel for what he did to me, actually was a tool of G_d's to bring me to Judaism. Perhaps that will save him from G_d's total wrath. His stock has dropped from $12 to $5.5 a share which must have financially devastated him. I did warn my ex-fiance over our years together that G_d takes care of my revenge better than I ever could. I just let Him have at whomever has done me wrong and sit back and watch. Sometimes I'll ask for mercy on the poor person who wronged me, but I have a lot of growing to do before I can do that for my ex-fiance.
Anyway, I've gotten settled into a life of being an island and not putting myself out there to be hurt again. My teaching job is going well, and I've gotten the school to pay me to tutor all the Arab new arrivals in math. These students have no idea that I'm an orthodox Jew, but they realize that I know a lot about Middle Eastern culture. Together we are helping each other. I'm helping them learn English math words and they're helping me keep my home. It's funny how G_d works.
Also, a mutual friend of my ex-fiance and me gave me the Jewish prayer for finding a spouse with the instructions to say it every night for 40 nights. So I have. As usual, G_d listens and the Jewish matchmakers finally found me a third match today. He does look like a man of science and truth. I just have to make sure that he's not a man of judgement. I seem to run into those too much. Should you do one thing wrong that gives them reason to unmercifully react and break commitments. I will just have to have faith that one day G_d will bring me my other half who is somewhere out there. Maybe this match is that man. Maybe it's not. TBD
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