One of my regular Shabbat dinner guests insisted that I go to the Rosh Chodesh gathering of ladies in the community. We learn Torah and do healing prayers all together by reading psalms and doing public petitions for our loved ones. It's also a time of eating and rejoicing!
When we talked about numerology, I mentioned my precious numerology that I've recently discovered. I nearly drowned in the upper American River when I was 12 years old, the age of Bat Mitzvah, the coming of age of a spiritual woman. The American River is a Mikvah, pure water for spiritual cleansing. So G_d gave me a personal Bat Mitzvah, since I had no idea of my Jewish heritage.
Even more amazing is that 40 years after my personal Bat Mitzvah with G_d, I did an orthodox conversion to Judaism in 1.5 years---very quickly. When the ladies heard my personal numerology, there were gasps. They knew the importance of the American River being a Mikvah, and some had used it instead of the community Mikvah. They also were amazed that it was exactly 40 years of wandering through many religions to find my way home. Only Jews wander for 40 years!
It became apparent to all that my ex-fiance, who was shamed to leave the country and go back to Israel for what he did to me, actually was a tool of G_d's to bring me to Judaism. Perhaps that will save him from G_d's total wrath. His stock has dropped from $12 to $5.5 a share which must have financially devastated him. I did warn my ex-fiance over our years together that G_d takes care of my revenge better than I ever could. I just let Him have at whomever has done me wrong and sit back and watch. Sometimes I'll ask for mercy on the poor person who wronged me, but I have a lot of growing to do before I can do that for my ex-fiance.
Anyway, I've gotten settled into a life of being an island and not putting myself out there to be hurt again. My teaching job is going well, and I've gotten the school to pay me to tutor all the Arab new arrivals in math. These students have no idea that I'm an orthodox Jew, but they realize that I know a lot about Middle Eastern culture. Together we are helping each other. I'm helping them learn English math words and they're helping me keep my home. It's funny how G_d works.
Also, a mutual friend of my ex-fiance and me gave me the Jewish prayer for finding a spouse with the instructions to say it every night for 40 nights. So I have. As usual, G_d listens and the Jewish matchmakers finally found me a third match today. He does look like a man of science and truth. I just have to make sure that he's not a man of judgement. I seem to run into those too much. Should you do one thing wrong that gives them reason to unmercifully react and break commitments. I will just have to have faith that one day G_d will bring me my other half who is somewhere out there. Maybe this match is that man. Maybe it's not. TBD
P.S. To my blog readers: If you want to support a struggling math/engineering teacher and author, please buy my first book, "The Romance of Kilimanjaro," soon to be followed by my second book at: https://www.tatepublishing.com/bookstore/book.php?w=9781613464960 Thank You!
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
Sunday, August 2, 2015
Israel Be Strong and Be Light
With antisemitism on the rise with the call for a boycott of Israeli products even on Facebook perhaps Israel should take a look inwardly. Of course every nation makes mistakes, but Israel is special. It's G_d's country.
In Deuteronomy (Devarim) Moses states in 4:8-10 "And which is a great nation that has righteous decrees and ordinances, such as this entire Torah that I place before you this day? Only beware for yourself and greatly beware for your soul, lest you forget the things that your eyes have beheld and lest you remove them from your heart all the days of your life, and make them known to your children and your children's children the day that you stood before Hashem, your G_d, at Horeb, when Hashem said to me, 'Gather the people to Me and I shall let them hear My words, so that they shall learn to fear Me all the days that they live on the earth, and they shall teach their children.'"
Rabbi David Abudraham (Abarbanel) states in reference to 'entire Torah,' "The key word is entire, for the Torah;s infinite wisdom is recognized only when it is seen, studied, and understood in its entirely."
Rabbi Shlomo Yitzchaki (Rashi) states, "Only if you remember the laws and perform them perfectly will you be respected by the nations, but if you permit forgetfulness to pervert your proper performance of the commandments, you will be regarded as fools. The Torah is not a grab bag from which one may pick and choose. It is like the blueprint of a complex edifice; unless every part is followed, the building may collapse."
Rabbi Chaim Ben Attar (Or Chaim) states, "So that they shall learn to fear Me. The very fact of the Revelation as enough to implant a sense of awe into the Jewish soul, so that fear of G_d became part of the nature of the Jew.
"Moses implied that fear of G_d is an essential outcome of the study of Torah and contemplation of the Revelation Meditation that does not lead to commitment and action is entirely insufficient."
Israel, it is time to look at your study and at your actions. If they are aligned with the Torah, continue on. If they are not aligned with the Torah, try harder to do better and do Teshuvah (repentance). Unfortunately, the darkness is targeting the light's imperfections. Be strong and be light.
P.S. To my blog readers: If you want to support a struggling math/engineering teacher and author, please buy my first book, "The Romance of Kilimanjaro," soon to be followed by my second book at: https://www.tatepublishing.com/bookstore/book.php?w=9781613464960 Thank You!
In Deuteronomy (Devarim) Moses states in 4:8-10 "And which is a great nation that has righteous decrees and ordinances, such as this entire Torah that I place before you this day? Only beware for yourself and greatly beware for your soul, lest you forget the things that your eyes have beheld and lest you remove them from your heart all the days of your life, and make them known to your children and your children's children the day that you stood before Hashem, your G_d, at Horeb, when Hashem said to me, 'Gather the people to Me and I shall let them hear My words, so that they shall learn to fear Me all the days that they live on the earth, and they shall teach their children.'"
Rabbi David Abudraham (Abarbanel) states in reference to 'entire Torah,' "The key word is entire, for the Torah;s infinite wisdom is recognized only when it is seen, studied, and understood in its entirely."
Rabbi Shlomo Yitzchaki (Rashi) states, "Only if you remember the laws and perform them perfectly will you be respected by the nations, but if you permit forgetfulness to pervert your proper performance of the commandments, you will be regarded as fools. The Torah is not a grab bag from which one may pick and choose. It is like the blueprint of a complex edifice; unless every part is followed, the building may collapse."
Rabbi Chaim Ben Attar (Or Chaim) states, "So that they shall learn to fear Me. The very fact of the Revelation as enough to implant a sense of awe into the Jewish soul, so that fear of G_d became part of the nature of the Jew.
"Moses implied that fear of G_d is an essential outcome of the study of Torah and contemplation of the Revelation Meditation that does not lead to commitment and action is entirely insufficient."
Israel, it is time to look at your study and at your actions. If they are aligned with the Torah, continue on. If they are not aligned with the Torah, try harder to do better and do Teshuvah (repentance). Unfortunately, the darkness is targeting the light's imperfections. Be strong and be light.
P.S. To my blog readers: If you want to support a struggling math/engineering teacher and author, please buy my first book, "The Romance of Kilimanjaro," soon to be followed by my second book at: https://www.tatepublishing.com/bookstore/book.php?w=9781613464960 Thank You!
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