Sunday, August 12, 2012

Summiting Mt. Shasta

     A few climbers and I carpooled to the trail head, Sand Flat at 6800 ft., that was at the end of the road that passed the Fifth Season Shop where we got our rental climbing gear.  I felt overwhelmed by nervousness.  Why did I chose to climb a mountain that could kill me for a vacation?  Was I too old and injured to be climbing mountains?  Why didn't I chose an easier mountain than Mt. Shasta for my first high altitude climb, since climbing Mt. Kilimanjaro eight years ago?

     This mountain turns back 2 out of 3 climbers before they reach the summit.  It was no easy walk up into high altitudes.  This was a technical mountain with its own weather systems which were very unpredictable.  Would my old, snow-camping equipment from the late 1970's hold up still?  Did I train hard enough?  Would I be the slowest?  Would I be left behind, because I am the slowest?
     At the trail head a chipmunk running behind our guide eased my tension. 
    "Oh, a chipmunk!"  I hadn't seen one in years.  My guides thought my excitement strange and gave me a credulous look at my seemingly misplaced enthusiasm.
     We gathered our group gear and loaded our bursting backpacks and started our climb.  My first challenge was climbing over a fallen tree with a 45 pound backpack (over a third of my weight).  The trunk was about 2.5 feet in diameter and it had tight-knit branches, so I had some hand holds with the branches at least.
    When we found our first snow patch we stopped to get to know each other.  We introduced ourselves by saying our name, where we're from, our past climbing experience, and who sang at our last live rock concert.  I couldn't remember Tom Petty's name at the time, so I just mentioned the Van Halen concert that I'd attended.
    With each step I started to feel a hot spot on one of my feet.  I knew that I was going to have to stop and put on some mole skin with a hole cut over the area rubbed.  The guides mentioned that they now use duct tape and superglue for hot spots and blisters.  Flashbacks from the 1980's of reading Material Safety Data Sheets to my assemblers about cyanoacrylics (the first Superglue's) being carcinogenic came to mind, so even if superglue was safe now, I'd stick with my tried and true method of dealing with areas being rubbed.  I was relieved that I only had one hot spot while using rental boots that I didn't get to break in personally.
    Soon another young buck had a hot spot and needed to stop, so I seized the opportunity and put the moleskin in place at the joint by my little toe.  Amazingly, that was the only hot spot that I ever got and that moleskin stayed in place for three days.  It came off on its own when I got off the mountain and put on my street shoes.  The old ways do work, too.
    Once we got our socks back on without any wrinkles and carefully tied our boots, we all started hiking to Horse Camp at 7900 ft.  The lodge was surrounded with snow.  I was relieved.  My camp shoes were my down booties inside of waterproof snow booties.  I hate getting dirt on my snow booties when I'm walking around at night to commune with nature---water a tree.

    At camp one of my guides taught me how to make snow anchors.  You find a stick and wrap the tent cords around it.  Then you dig a hole about 6-12 inches deep and bury the stick.  Over the night the snow freezes the anchor, so the tent is well secured.
    Our guides also gave us a quick lesson about walking with an ice axe while being roped together.  Our young guide was busy showing us the French cross stepping method and other fancy methods.  I tried them, but I told the other guide that I probably won't be doing those steps when the time comes.  Since I have wider hips that once had trochanteric bursitis from running with my feet too close together, I maintain my great hip health by walking and (formerly running) with my feet directly below my hips.  Crossing over the center line of my stance was a huge "No, no," for me.  Adding a 45 pound backpack was only going to accelerate a hip injury, too.
    After our lesson our guides made us some potato soup and tortilla wraps.  We had a lot of vegetarians in my group, so I did have to go over to the young buck group and get some chicken for my wrap from their guide.  That wasn't a problem, because they had a vegetarian in their group who needed to go over to get food from my guides.
    Sleeping on the ground for the first time in 8 years wasn't too comfortable, even though snow is more comfortable than dirt. My face was also freezing though I tightened the opening to my down bag to a small hole.  Then as usual I had to go commune with nature during the middle of the night.  I was thankful to have my snow booties that just slipped onto my feet.  My pajama-party, tent mate also had to go, so I led the way.  When I turned off my Snow Miners Headlamp, the incredible stars burst into view.  I just stared at the Milky Way that I'd never seen in California before.  What a treat!
    Without thinking that there were no mechanical noises to drown my voice, I announced to my tent mate, "Make sure to turn your headlamp off and look at the stars.  They're awesome!"  Of course, the tents all around me heard.  At least some of the other climbers took the opportunity to see those beautiful stars at night on Mt. Shasta.
    Early in the morning our guides woke us up and told us that the hot water for coffee, tea, and oatmeal was ready.  We quickly got dressed and headed to the cooking area to pile down calories and caffeine for our climb through the snow with heavy backpacks.  I even added some granola to my oatmeal.  These calories were for tomorrow.  I knew what tomorrow would bring---a long summit day---over 12 hours of hiking and perhaps a nap at high camp after summiting.  Remembering the fatigue after summiting Mt. Kilimanjaro gave me trepidation about tomorrow.
    A fabulous thing about Horse Camp, besides the stars and snow, is that there is a Potty Hut for bowel movements.  Any other movements required communing with nature.  Unfortunately, the high altitude was doing what it tends to do---causing constipation, so I hoped that I'd be that way the whole climb.  Otherwise, I had to carry out a bowel movement in kitty litter.  Yuck!!!  I've never had to do that before.  We used to just bury it.  Some old ways I couldn't hold onto.  There were too many people climbing in the California mountains anymore, so burying bowel movements would ruin the mountain.
    With tents down, gear packed, and crampons on, we lined up and started our second day of climbing.  We didn't have many miles to go to reach Lake Helen at 10,400 ft.  We had a lot of elevation change, 2500 ft, while hiking through snow and carrying heavy backpacks.  We only took a break every hour to power down snacks and drink water, so we just stepped in the footprint above us and slowly ascended to Lake Helen, which was just a dry lake covered with snow.
    As the morning hours churned on, my bouncing water bottle that was poorly secured on my new backpack was really bothering me.  It kept hitting the bruise on my upper arm from putting on my heavy backpack.  So I stopped for help and waited for our second guide who was far behind us and was with the slowest climber in our group, my tent mate.  Once my guide secured the water bottle, I continued onward.
    I could still see the faster members of my group, so I set out climbing alone between my guides.  Sometimes the guide with a couple of the struggling young bucks would be near me and encourage me to keep going.  Trust me, I needed that encouragement.  Apparently, the grade right below Lake Helen is 28%.  Considering the load on my back, this section was grueling and took many of my internal encouragement coping mechanisms to keep myself moving.  "It's just a little farther.  I can see the others up on the ridge.  I can do this!  Pole, pole!"
    Finally, I reached the top of the ridge of Lake Helen, exhausted and ready to lay my backpack down where ever I could.  Before I did, our guide mentioned that we needed to dig out a place for our tents.  The faster climbers in my group had mercy on me.  They let me have the site that was already dug out, because my tent mate was not going to be much help.  She was not going to arrive for quite some time.  She was just starting the 28% grade.
    With great relief, I took my backpack off where my tent opening would be, leveled the dug out area with my boots, and pulled the tent out of my pack. 

I didn't have the poles, but I did bring some sticks up from Horse Camp to use for anchors.  So I anchored down the tent and used the outdoor bathroom that one of the guides had built.  He made a big snow wall with a bench to place our paper target should we have to use our bowel movement packet with kitty liter.


     When my tent mate finally arrived, I told her to just relax.  "I'll put the tent up."   I got the poles from her pack, set it up, and got my sleeping bag out and airing on my new female Thermorest.  My closed cell foam pad from the 1970's which I use for extra insulation and comfort was being requested for the top of the snow bench in the snow kitchen which our guides made.  I guess some older mountaineering items are precious. 

     Before dinner we had a quick lesson about ice arrests.

     We ate the rehydrated mountain grub which started to look the same even though it was a different selection.  It didn't matter.  We weren't here to eat delicious food.  We were here to get enough calories to climb this mountain.
     After dinner I carefully packed my backpack with only essentials.  I put my snacks in the pockets of my down coat, so during our 20 minute breaks, I can maximize resting my legs.  I also fitted my GoPro and Snow Miners Headlamp onto my helmet.
     Our wake up call would be 2am, so we went to bed at 7pm.  I wore my hat with a face mask to bed to keep my face warm and block the light of the day by pulling it over my eyes.  Even though my tent mate was stirring, I fell fast asleep.  My body didn't even mind sleeping on the snow that night.
     The wake up call came right on time.  Fortunately, I felt rested for only having 5 hours of sleep.  We quickly got dressed; communed with nature; put our harnesses, crampons, and helmets with headlamps on; and got in line.
     After we walked across the lake, our guides roped us up in groups of 5 including the guide.  Then we continued our journey up the 35% grade as one in a rhythm with our ice axes and steps, "Plunge, step, step, plunge, step, step...."  Our rhythm was only interrupted by our rest every hour for 20 minutes exactly.
     "Stomp out your positions.  Secure your packs.  Eat," our guides instructed.  We'd put our ice axes through one shoulder strap to secure our packs on the steep grade, get our jackets loaded with food on, and sit and rest.  Some rests I started resting with my knees in the snow.  I was having some knee pain that I'd been experiencing from double stepping stairs for months.  I'd rested the injury away, but it came back.  My knees must be in an improper position when I'm climbing. 
     When we were below "The Heart" some climbers above us let some rocks loose.  "Rock!"  We dived down and buried our heads.  "That's why we start so early, so there's fewer people above us," our guide explained.
     Eventually, the lines of light zig zagging up the mountain were replaced by dark figures on the white snow as the sun rose.  Mt. Shasta's shadow made a dark pyramid in the west.  I was a little sad that I didn't get to watch the sunrise in a higher location like I did on Mt. Kilimanjaro.  Watching the sun rise over Africa was amazing from the crater rim.  I was still on the west face of Avalanche Gulch for this sunrise, though.

     It took about another hour to reach the ridge line at Red Banks at about 12,820 ft.  What a beautiful view!  Our guide then called our attention to the crevasse from the Konwakiton Glacier that we needed to carefully step over.  "Follow my steps exactly," he instructed.  With the threat of falling into oblivion, we sure did!
    Misery Hill soon presented itself before us. 

It's a 1000 feet of exposed climbing.  The winds buffeted us, and it was a good day per the guides.  The other woman that was as little as I am was blown around just like I was.  We braced ourselves so hard against the southern wind that when it let up, we lurched to the south all together.

    The glory of completing Misery Hill is that the top of Mt. Shasta at 14179 ft. finally reveals itself.  It stands only a few hundred feet above the relatively flat plain. 

     However, the ease of crossing the beautiful snowy plain is quickly replaced by the horror that the air is sulfur-fume-filled.  Here we had so little air to breathe and then it's filled with sulfur which made me nauseous.  Mt. Shasta is an active volcano with fumerals after all.  At least my Diamox kept me from getting altitude sickness.
     Our guide had removed the rope from our harnesses, so we could summit on our own.  As I crossed the plain, I pushed through my nausea and kept walking.  Someone coming down from the summit apparently had talked to me while I was focusing through my fatigue and pain to keep on climbing, so my guide, a former professional mountain biker, who was behind me taking care of my tent mate came running up to me, "Are you OK?  You didn't respond to another climber when he talked to you?" 
      I was confused about how "OK" I should be after hiking 4000ft for 6 hours at high altitude while inhaling sulfur fumes, but instinctively responded, "Oh, I'm a little hard of hearing at my age.  I'm fine."  I honestly had no idea that someone had talked to me.  Even if I was delirious from fatigue and knee pain, the summit was right smack in front of me, and I was going to get that summit---deliria or no deliria.

     Marching on alone I plodded my way slowly to the summit.  My Indian friends in my group took pictures of me at the top waving to my mom in Heaven like I always do when I summit a mountain.

Then I remembered it was Father's Day, so I took my malfunctioning GoPro off my helmet and took a few 3 second videos wishing Dad "Happy Father's Day!" from the top of Mt. Shasta.  Fortunately, the GoPro worked long enough at that altitude and low temperatures to convey my message.

      Once my tent mate arrived and rested, we all headed down to the top of Misery Hill.

Remembering that I had to commune with nature I had my guide show me a safe place to relieve myself.  He knew of a secluded spot that was shielded from the wind, but said, "Follow me exactly and don't step three feet over there.  That's a glacier with a crevasse."  Here I had been the one telling everyone about the lady in Alaska that fell into a glaciel mulan never to be found again while trying to have some privacy while relieving herself.  I was a bit unnerved by my similar situation.  Fortunately, my fate was to be seen again.
      After rejoining my group of five climbers we descended rapidly to Red Banks while watching skiers having fun on Misery Hill.  My Indian friends that were happily married climbers in love gave each other a kiss.

    Our guide put on Hawaiin swim trunks to protect his waterproof pants from friction wear while glissading.  Then the epic 2430 vertical feet butt skiing, I mean glissading began! 
      Our guide quickly discerned that I'd been butt skiing since I was in grade school, so he let me go on ahead while he lead the rest of our crew who were new at it.  My group said that I was out of sight within 5 minutes which was hard to do since we could see Lake Helen.  Some climbers that were playing in the bobsled-like trench that was being created by all the descending climbers glissading in the same groove saw me coming down fast with an avalanche of snow flowing right infront of me.  They quickly got out of the groove/trench and let me pass.  How cool was that? 
      When I made it to the end of the trench at Lake Helen, I was a bit lost.  I couldn't see our tents.  Remembering to always get high to get your bearings, I walked up a little ridge and looked over.  Our tents were right below and there was another glissading groove leading to them! "Epic butt skiing day!" I thought to myself with a big grin.  I only wished that my GoPro was working well enough to record it.  (It apparently had started to work properly again at 12,830 ft.  I just didn't know that.)
      Unfortunately, my grin was wiped away upon arriving to camp.  The other guide informed me that there was no time for me to rest before we descended to the cars.  What?  I'd been hiking since 2:30 am, summitted Mt. Shasta and returned before lunch and couldn't lay down to rest my weary, aching body!  I hadn't planned on no rest at Lake Helen.  I got to rest at Kibo Hut for an hour or two after summitting Mt. Kilimanjaro.  I was downright angry!
      "Clear your personal belongings out of the tent and the others will take your tent down," she said noticing that I was ready to explode in anger.
      "We will still have my tentmate's things in the tent.  I can't lie down for a minute?" I grumbled angrily.
      "We're all tired," another climber from the fast group uttered with no mercy, since he was as exhausted as me and had to help take my tent down.  I felt so unnurtured and missed my Kilimanjaro guides so much.  They would have let me rest for at least a half hour.
       Begrudgingly, I packed my sleeping bag, clothes, and foam pads into my once light backpack.  It looked like it was bursting, since I was too tired to properly organized my gear.  I just jammed it all in.  Then I waited for the other four from my slower climbing group, while icing my knees in the snow and eating a Luna bar and dried mangos.
       Finally, the other climbers arrived, and we packed up and headed down to Horse Camp.  My Indian friends and I got off the main trail to Horse Camp, but we eventually got to it.  They hadn't had much experience with snow---India doesn't have much snow, so I taught them about the dangers of getting too close to boulders as we approached many large boulders just melting through the snow.  A climber can slip between the boulder and snow pack.  It can be like falling into a crevasse, if you're terribly unlucky.
       We rested at Horse Camp, and I used the last blanket of snow to make an ice pack for my knee that was screaming in pain.  Once my tent mate appeared and got a snack and some water, we headed to the cars.  We finally got to my truck at 5:30 pm.  Apparently, I didn't have time for a nap.
      We had hiked 15 hours on summit day!  100% of the 16 climbers in our group made it to the summit on a mountain where only 1/3 of the attempts are successful.  Our Shasta Mountain Guides that REI had hired had fiercely scheduled us for success.  They pushed us hard and made us uncomfortable, but made our dream of summitting Mt. Shasta come true.
       Even though we were exhausted, we were insatiably hungry and had to find a restaurant after we returned our rentals in the drop box at the Fifth Season.  Fortunately, Shasta City is used to dirty, tired climbers walking in to restaurants.  We did change our clothes, but we did just return after three days of not showering and the shower had a lower priority to our hunger issue.
      My vegetarian climbing friends were used to me eating meat by then, so I got a steak, potato, and beer, even though I normally drink Cabernet.  My body just wanted a beer!
     After dinner I gave all my new friends a copy of my memoir, "The Romance of Kilimanjaro."  They were ready to climb that mountain now and may want some training tips and a better understanding of what to expect when climbing that mountain.   As all mountain climbers know, once one mountain has been checked off the summitting list, another mountain needing to be climbed is right below it.  Mountain climbing is highly addictive.
    

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Monday, July 2, 2012

Yona and My Song

     Yona blesses me with so much love.  Here is our beautiful song:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jYNCnLTnzys

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Saturday, June 30, 2012

Forbidden Kisses


Forbidden Kisses

Gliding over the rippling lake

Two kayakers embarked on separate paths:

 One seeking that which was lost,

One exploring to find something new.



With each paddle stroke

The kayakers arrived together

Their voices danced upon the water

Discovering the steps of the other.



Their worlds were not one,

An orthodox Jew and Christ follower.

Two who loved the same God differently,

But were strongly drawn together.



Deeply they wanted to bridge

This religious chasm of the ages

And discussed their differences

And reveled in their similarities.



Then the explorer had to climb

A daunting mountain that called to her

And the other gave her a gift of love:

A forbidden kiss in his world.



While climbing the mountain

She shared her story about this kiss,

And God sent her favorite bird

To the one she now adored.



Entering his world for the first time

The Black Phoebe beckoned his gaze

This lost realm of God was revealed

And his heart was open to it and her.



When she returned the two were one

Upon the glistening, rippling lake

And amongst the singing birds

Sharing more forbidden kisses.



After each kiss the world was silent,

It veiled these lovers with awesome stillness

For God had brought together

These two to become one.

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Monday, June 25, 2012

Preparing to Climb Mt. Shasta

    Strangely enough, I could not find an REI climbing trip up Mt. Whitney, the highest California mountain that has been the only mountain that I could not summit.  So I booked a trip to climb Mt. Shasta instead.  My parents and former high school mountaineering instructor had told me stories of climbing Mt. Shasta scores of years ago.  This mountain intrigued me, but never really beckoned to me like Mt. Whitney.  Now it was this mountain's turn to try to turn me back with its fiercely high altitudes, unique weather systems, and snowy glaciers.
    Training was a challenge.  I have arthritis in the arch of my foot now.  I didn't have that when I climbed Mt. Kilimanjaro.  Running 3 and 6 miles each week was out of the question, so I racked my brain to figure out how to get weight onto my legs and my heart rate to run high for prolonged periods.  Rollerblading was my solution.
     Rollerblading is low impact as long as there aren't any falls.  The new brake system of the rollerblades versus rollerskates doesn't make sense to me.  When I started rollerblading, I'd just run into nearby grass to stop.  Later I developed grabbing the poles with the buttons to cross the street to stop while I waited for my turn to cross.  I actually only had one bad spill, but I softened my fall by grabbing the sign with the neighborhood's walking trail map on it.  The sign left a bruise on my forearm, but I didn't get hurt otherwise.
     So I raced down the long, flat roads of Gold River, CA building up to 8 miles an hour for an hour a few times a week.  The plastic boot of the rollerblade held my arthritic foot solidly in place like a cast, so I wasn't restricted by my foot.  The lateral movements to propel myself built up my hip muscles which I'd need for stabilizing a 45 pound backpack in uneven and windy terrain.  The only issue my body had with that training was a little knee pain in one knee.
    Other ways I'd train was biking 22 miles along the American River bike trail to Lake Folsom and back.  It had hills, lots of people, beautiful scenery, and no cars.  Any stairs that I climbed I double stepped to build my climbing muscles.  I packed my new backpack a few weeks early and added a few heavy books as my back and hips became accustomed to carrying weight while I hiked.
     Unfortunately, my summer hiking boots weren't supportive enough for my arthritic foot, so I'd have to massage my foot with Aspercreme afterwards.  Each time that I'd  hike 7 miles with my backpack, however, my foot hurt more.  My hopes of climbing any mountain again started to fade, but I remembered the stiff plastic boots that I used for ice climbing in Alaska and hoped that the rental double plastic boots would freeze my foot inplace like a cast, too.  Then my arthritic foot would be out of the equation.  Fortunately, the rental double plastic boots with crampons were like casts.  My foot never was an issue during my mountain experience.

     Mountains have a way of giving us a hard reset, so we can understand ourselves better and what's important in this world.  If we're listening, we might even hear God during the silence of mechanisms while we journey to the summit.  Climbing high mountains is a tried and true path to inner revelation.
     Climbing mountains also is a mental challenge.  Can we keep our thoughts focused on the summit and away from the hours and hours of toil, effort, pain, and nagging fatigue?  Can we overcome the voice that tells us to give up---that this is a ludicrous act?
     Trepidation filled me as I packed my backpack over again in the Cold Creek Inn hotel room the night before.  Would I be able to find everything in a new backpack when I needed it?  Would I be the slowest climber?  Would I be left behind during the summit attempt?  Would I get altitude sickness?  Would my body let me down?
     The Diamox that I took three times a day for a few days before my climb kept making my throat almost swell shut.  It also made soda taste awful!  I hoped that the swelling throat side effect would stop once I got on the mountain.  Fortunately, it did.  Other climbers told me that Diamox makes all carbonated drinks taste awful, so that reassured me that my body was reacting normally to this altitude sickness drug.
     When the morning arrived where we met our climbing group, I was still filled with trepidation.  I coached myself, "It's the journey that's important.  It's better to try and fail, then to never have tried at all."  Then I walked out to the group of highly fit people---mostly men and four women.
      Our guides had us empty out our backpacks in the Cold Creek Inn parking lot.  I knew that good guides would do this.  They were responsible for our well being and our success.  They needed to rid us of useless weight and make sure that we had appropriate gear for snow camping and high altitude exposures.  Amazingly enough, they took out a pile of my clothing.  I was thrilled at losing more weight. 
      Backpack weight reduction was a major priority to me.  I'd tried desperately to reduce the backpack's weight on my own, knowing that I had to keep it at or under a third of my body weight---43 pounds.  My 49-year-old body just couldn't handle more than that anymore.  I even purchased airline plastic containers and only took two days of toiletries.  Neutrogena had facial wipes for cleaning my face at night and in the morning, and I used panty liners to keep my underwear clean. 
      Food weight was a huge concern, too.  I studied all the sports bars and picked the ones with the most nutrition and calories, and least weight.  Cliff, Luna, and Power bars were the winners.  Eating tasty food wasn't the plan.  Eating calories constantly to make it to the summit was the plan.  I did have dried mangos and Lindt and Hersheys chocolate bars which were my small bit of tasty heaven for three days.
     After we repacked our backpacks, our four guides split us up into two groups of 8.  All the women and men older than 30 were in our group.  The manly, young bucks were in the other group.  That worked for all of us.  Going at a pace that's too fast leads to defeat.  Mt. Shasta requires us to know how to be at our best to be able to reach her summit, especially when raw, youthful health has long passed us by.

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Saturday, June 9, 2012

My Adam

     The river of life is so unpredictable, but it flows to God's kismet.  Along the way are so many forks, so many eddies, so many rapids, so many revelations, so many tears, so much beauty, so much love.  As I paddle along, replacing an occassional paddle for my loved ones, I find at times that I am left to journey unaided by my Adam---my partner in life.
     Returning from the ICU in San Diego, I realized that I needed my Adam, but I had none.  I cried out to God with the tears that had not stopped from almost losing my son, "Where is my Adam?  Where is my Adam?"
     Long ago I decided that if I should ever have to kayak alone again that I would just do that which I love to do and be whom God intended me to be.  Only then would I find my true Adam, who will find me.  In my dreams he has always happens upon me.
    Mercifully, I have been found by my Adam while paddling alone on May 30th.  In the distance I saw him and kept my distance and carefully watched.  Lake Natoma's waters were high, so I kept an small island between us while I studied him.  He paddled parallel, but about 50 yards infront of me.  To me he was just another kayaker to study until I saw him stop and stretch his arm.  Was he waiting for me to catch up?  How sly!
    Angling my kayak to narrow the distance between us, I continued my normal rhythm while continuing my study of this man.  His appearance was not pompous, not threatening, but gentle and endearing.  I felt safe, so I allowed myself to be near enough for him to talk to me, and he did in an Israeli accent.
    We paddled closely together for over an hour.  He showed me his route that he always likes to take. He was like me, someone who likes patterns.  He was like me, a person who makes friends with strangers.  He was like me, an intellectual.  He was like me, a lover of music. 
     After awhile I explained to him, "I can take care of myself for the rest of my life, but I'd rather share my life with someone."
     He quickly responded, "I was meant to have a partner, as well."
     As we parted, he asked me for my e-mail address, and he told me his.  I never needed to remember his, even though I did.  His e-mail awaited me, "Hi, was a pleasure meeting you, even the setting was beautiful :-)."  Then he added video links of the concerts that he gives at his home.
     While watching the videos, I saw his eyes for the first time.  We both had worn sunglasses and hats, so we really didn't know each other's face.  During the video he said, "Hello!" to his mother in Israel while introducing the Asian Indian band in his music room.  How adorable!  He is a man who loves his mother! 
      A few days later we decided to meet at the walking bridge at Sunrise to ride our bicycles together along the American River bike trail.  We waited for each other at different bridges.  Fortunately, I texted him that I was at the bridge, and he soon joined me at the Fair Oaks Bridge, my version of the Sunrise walking bridge. 
      He remarked when he saw, "This is like the movie where two lovers waited for each other at the wrong bridge!"  Then he added that he was glad that I was little.  He didn't know how tall that I was, since we were sitting in kayaks.  He's only 5'-7".
      Then we set off for Lake Folsom.  Upon reaching the lake he brought me over to some shaded boulders where we could talk more.  We didn't look at the lake much, because it was the first time that we saw each other's eyes---when we took our sunglasses off.
      His brown eyes showed me his gentle soul---a soul that loved God.  Could this be my Adam?
      Two days later he texted me, "Good morning.  I will attempt to watch the Venus Transit around 5pm, would you care to join me?  next one is in 2117...so weigh your answer carefully. :-)"
      Of course I met him to watch this once in a lifetime celestial event.  He was so happy to see me and led me to a bench in Jan Park, a natural park surrounded by homes that were hidden.  My Israeli friend explained that he had helped organize the neighborhood to buy this park and build it. The more that I learned about this man, the more that I adore him.  Then he handed me dark glasses to wear, so that I could look straight into the sun and see Venus moving slowly acrossed it.  It looked like a dark spot. 
     When we said our "Goodbyes" after walking around the park, he gave me a large piece of agate formed from petrified wood.  It was extraordinary in tan colors, flow, smoothness, and sharpness.  He had found it while doing a geological study of a development.  This stone was such a precious gift, because he gave me what he loved---stones!  He added, "We've met on the water and the land, and now we've gazed up to the heavens together.  When someone asks us where we were during the Venus Transit, we have this story." 
      Later he sent me this video of the park.  He choreographed pictures of the beautiful oak trees, fields, and wild flowers to clasical piano music---all that I love!  Tears came to my eyes.  I was so happy to have found my Adam.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZap6f7KW6g

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Sunday, May 27, 2012

Sometimes Doing What God Asks Is Beyond Difficult!

     When my son, Drew, was in the ICU in a medicated coma with two bruised lungs from his car accident, I asked God while resting my head on my pillow on my son's hospital bed, "What can I do for you to heal my son?" 
      His answer was not what I wanted to hear.  "You must apologize to your ex-husband for leaving him with nothing."
      "I don't know what to say?  How can I possibly find that apology within me when I don't feel that I did anything wrong?  You told me not to intervene and give him the $10,000 when we left each other."
      Then His words filled me.  I wrestled with them as I calmly rested my head.  Oh, I didn't want to lift my head and tell Parker what I had to tell him, but I had to do so to save my son.  I slowly raised my head and looked at my ex-husband, Parker, with his new wife in his lap being cute newly weds while fretting about Drew's condition.
      My mouth opened and the words flowed out effortlessly, "Parker, I'm sorry that I was the instrument that God used to bring you to the bottom.  You've become a better person because of that though, and you have a wife that can meet your needs that I could never meet.  I'm happy for you."
      Parker responded immediately, "Wow, that must have been really hard for you to say."
      That was an understatement!

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Sunday, May 20, 2012

Wake Up Calls

     When I feel distant from God, he always makes sure to give me a wake up call to completely rely upon him again.  I guess that I've been spending so much time focusing on building "My" new life, I forgot that this is really "God's" new life for me.  Being forgetful about who gave me a second chance at life is never good.
      First, my cousin, Andy, got a third round of nonHodgkins Type B lymphoma and will be getting stem cell replacement.  Hopefully, that will cure him permanently from this continual struggle with lymphoma.  Then while I was getting my blood drawn for my new doctor in Sacramento, I got a call from my ex-husband that my son was in the ICU at Scripts La Jolla and was being incubated.
      One thing that I've learned is the power of massive healing prayer from many.  So I joined the prayer warriors for my cousin and enlisted my prayer warriors from Facebook and all the churches at which I formerly worshipped in San Diego to pray for my son to heal quickly.  Then I flew to be by my son's side to hold his hand and pray for him right next to him.
      Miraculously, my son survived a terrible roll over accident that shut down I-5 near Camp Pendleton.  Miraculously, he had no broken bones or stitches.  Miraculously, God's angels protected him.  (I pray that God surround my children with angels for protection every night btw.)  Miraculously, he is healing quickly from two bruised lungs and a small brain bleed.  Miraculously, he should be able to be back to normal in a week.
      Thank you God!  I love you God!  Glory to you God forever and ever!

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